im twenty (finally)!

hope you had a great christmas!:D

exhausted from an entire week of celebrations! but really really touched by all the love each of you have showered on me the past few days:)
i had such a blast and its all thanks to you, you and you!

so thank you, thank you, and thank you again for all the wonderful surprises, presents and birthday messages/calls, i really really appreciate it, and i dont know how else to express my gratitude enough, but to say thank you.
love you people with all my heart!:))))))))))

major picture post. and because im in a rush to finish up this post before i leave for beijing tonight, please pardon the lack of words!

21st with the lawr group

23rd dec @ crystal’s

with the closest friends i have in law school:) i certainly wouldn’t know how to survive all that gruelling studying and assignments without them!

really touched that you guys took the effort to celebrate my birthday:) though you gave nearly gave me a heart attack, esp with sam’s horribly loud BOO! when i was just peacefully stepping out of the toilet haha.

and thank you all too for the triumph maximiser! i absolutely love it! so lacey and pretty HAHA.

before the party, joce and sally came early (but, late HAHA) to my place first to cook a few dishes for the party. we made a really awesome baked ziti and mushroom soup! NOT campbell soup mind you. we even blended the mushrooms for the stock!

and that’s the crystal i love soooo much:)))

24th at my place

with yummy turkey, ham, pasta, shepherd’s pie, etc, it was a feast almost fit for a king.
love love love christmas food!
i can’t believe i forgot to take any pictures though!:(

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25th

christmas lunch at the tower club with my family:)
there was my favourite heart-burning foie gras and everything else, yummy, cheesy and fattening.
also dedicated my first oyster experience there, not bad i guess? the oysters were fresh, so there was no fishy smell but i still dont get the fuss about oysters though. i rather stick to my lobsters and caviar HAHA.

my sweet, sweet brother got me a really pretty diamond necklace for my birthday and i love it to death:)
(though my heart ached quite abit, cos i rather he spend on something lesser since he’s not working) but i really have one of the sweetest, most caring and patient elder brother around and i can’t be more appreciative and thankful for that. im praying really hard that he secures a good job soon! plsplspls!

christmas night with the brotherhood gang. i had fun:) and thank you too, to the whole bunch of strangers who sang me a birthday song past midnight. it was an unforgettable experience, but really embarrassing though, my face was so flushed i thought i was gonna blow up then haha.
will post whatever pictures i have when im back from beijing!

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26th dec

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF YAYY!:DDD
may i grow prettier, sexier, hotter and RICHER each year HAHA!

got awoken early in the morning by kwek who insisted i open his present cos he was so excited about it. see how adorable my boyf is haha. and i could see why he was so excited, he got me a polaroid camera!:))))
SO HAPPY! ive always been so envious of carmen’s, and now i have one myself yay!:DDD thank you baby:)

then being the pig i am, i went back to sleep again.

only to get awoken later by some noise in my room, got such a huge shock when i opened my eyes to see the girls crowding around me with a cake and all. omg! can’t believe you girls came all the way down so early in the morning to celebrate my birthday! really, really touched:)))
and thank you for the aldo bag too! i love love love it!:) and i love love love each one of you:)))

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after that, handsome treated me to a spa:)))
if only heaven could drop some money on my laps now, i’ll go to a spa every single day. SIGHH claire neo, why you so poor?

and we had an incredibly fantastic dinner at dozo:)
loved the ambience, the 7-course dinner (SO SO SO YUMMY!!!), the very attentive staff and most of all, the company:)))

i had an awesome birthday, and i couldn’t have asked for a better way to spend it:)
thank you baby, for everything you’ve done for me – not only for my birthday, but for every thing you’ve given me, every way you’ve supported me, and every time you tolerated all my imperfections these three years. you’ve been god’s greatest gift to me, and i can’t be more thankful for that.
i love you soooo much, and you know that:)

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27th dec

and of course, my birthday wouldn’t be complete without my favourite girls:)

met them first at esplanade. they finally had a chance to take revenge to blindfold me and let me have a taste of all that public humiliation haha. wongkahleng, you’re gonna get it from me next yr! i’m gonna make you do a 2.4km run blindfolded i promise HAHA

took off the blindfold to find myself at fullerton for a very splended high tea. i could really do with more of this tai tai life you know:)

awww dont you just love her? well, i do. love her very very much in fact:))))

and these two sneaky girls told me i was going to a fish spa next. so i happily followed them to clarke quay and before i knew it, we were right in front of GMAX and there came two cheeky faces, “SURPRISE! you’re going alone on GMAX!”
i nearly died i tell you.
had to beg them before kah got singled out to be the lucky one to go up with me HAHA.

it was really damn scary!!! cos there was absolutely nothing for you to hold on to. at the peak, it felt like i was falling off my seat:(
took me a good ten minutes to finally regain some composure after i got off the ride.
kah and i were like idiots, screaming all the way from the bottom to the top. gen said we were the most amusing to watch and everyone around her was laughing at the both of us. THANKS AH. the funniest thing was at the end of it, kah and i found our legs interlocked – completely unplanned!

but it was good fun though. what an experience haha

thank you loves for planning such an awesome & exciting (TOO exciting) day for me!:) it definitely wont be an easy one to forget haha. anw i really treasure the friendship we have because the two of you simply mean so so much to me.
it’s only been four years, but i just know it’s gonna last forever:)
oh no, im starting to miss the two of you already HOWWW?:(
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okay, thats all from me about my birthday till i come back from beijing and meet up with more i love!:)

p.s. ping, xiu, so sorry about today! we’ll have a blast next wed alrighty!:D

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Melb!:)

im posting up the melb pictures slowly cos there’s simply too many!

and the BEST CHICKEN ON EARTH!

im off to beijing tonight!
pls pray hard for me that i dont freeze to death! and that i dont come back looking like a xiao long bao!:(((
ok byebye!

SHOULD I CHECK MY RESULTS?????

hello dear friends, pls take that particular post with a pinch of salt okay:)
it was really an exceptional post, written at an exceptionally emo moment. just needed to vent my frustrations somewhere and i figured that i shouldnt be afraid to do so on this small space of mine. you know, random blabbers.
so ummm. im fine! and plsssss dont think too much about it!
i still love you all very very much. MUACKS MUACKS:)))

btw, i really regret perming my hair very very much x10000000. goes to show that having 3 dogs at home doesnt mean i should look like one. may fairy godmother bestow on me straight hair when i open my puny eyes tmr pls pls.

am i the only insane one who thinks that forever 21 at 313 is completely overrated?
it’s a mad house!
you plough through the racks for a good 5 mins to finally find your size, then you queue for another 15 minutes at the dressing room, followed by another 15 at the cashier waiting for your turn to give money.
urgh.
seriously, i rather be at home online shopping at their website. and it’s cheaper!

but good for me anyway.
i spent all my money today on presents for others. zero dollars on myself!!! HURRAY.
first step to thrifty-hood, well done claire neo!:)

if we’d realise, we’ll treasure them more.

the two i hold so close to my heart.
thanks you for coming all the way down to celebrate my birthday with me loves:) and for lending me a listening ear at a time when i needed it most. to show my appreciation and LOVEEE for you two, ive decided to sacrifice and show my horrendous looking puffy eyes to the whole world :D (and well, yiwei, sorry you just gotta show your face too haha) we’ll make up for the cancelled stayover this sunday alrighty:)

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mart 130, the best brunch ever. small and cosy, owners who sing chirpily as they take your order, the aromatic scent of blueberry muffins engulfing the entire room, huge huge smiles at every corner and of course, some damn good food. there just isn’t a better way to start off the day. – just the kind of place you can’t wait to introduce to all those you love.  if only i could fly you there now!
we loved it so much we went back a second time!:)

the time of the year

whats your self worth?

ive been at this for almost an hour, and all i do after every sentence i type is backspace.
i guess i am this loss for words.

things are not right.
there’s a whole lot of disappointment accumulating.
apart from family, is there really anything in the world called unconditional?
friends? i thought i could be that magnaminous, but i realise i just can’t. its hard for me to expect less when ive put in that much. i do have sky high expectations i realise. i feel like ive done so much, given so much. sometimes i feel like a clown. i make a fool out of myself, and they laugh at my crazy self. i appear so hyper on the outside, sometimes i amaze myself. who is this girl? but i really dont think they should think i dont have emotions. everyone needs to feel appreciated. i think im human too. i dont like being taken for granted too. and you think all this is easy? im being as thick skinned as i can already stretch myself, and all i get’s responses i probably deserve for being a clown all year round. haha well done. im miserable, pathetic and extremely tired. i feel like i could do with some crying and a week long of alone time. talk to someone? who?

things just get worse.
i am that incorrigible. ugly inside out? yea, i think that’s me.

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dont we all hate the feeling of insecurity?
of inadequacy.
of losing control.

my actions are so uncalled for sometimes.
such a trainwreck, really.

I PERMED MY HAIR!
and the hairstylist happily gave me huuuuge bangs to go with it too!!!
talk about change. i waited almost 6 years to sport a new look, and now that i have one, it just has to be this drastic.
i’m still trying to get used to this curly poodle hair, decided i look more retarded than cute in bangs so im sweeping them all awkwardly to one side.
am trying very hard to convince myself that i dont look half as bad as i think i do. thank god i have the whole of today to get know to the alien in the mirror.

certainly doesn’t help that christmas/birthday’s arriving and there’re tons of people im gonna have to meet!:S

do me a favour when you see me the next?
just tell me i look fantastic. please please please.
i promise i will love you very much.

but i know joce and sally’s gonna be sooo proud of me though! HAHA

singapore is such a small small world.
just look at how i bumped into joey and siyun at ion orchard alone!
not that im complaining tho, cos i can’t get enough of these people and i do somehow love the feeling of bumping into people unexpectedly – i think its kinda heartwarming and exciting? – best if its coupled with a few ultrasound shrieks (think miss ongseeyuun) and bear hugs haha.

anyway, last night was well-spent with my two favourite girls. always well-spent:)
can’t wait for the 27th babes!

p.s. i still think your hair looks great gen:)))
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off to meet my handsome boy for lunch! byebye!